"A" and "a"

Everything happen for reasons, and the good news is you don’t have to understand all the reasons because some reasons don’t have to be understood, they just need to be accepted.  A good “A” will not always produce another good “a”. We might see that "A" is just really good and great for being herself, but we couldn’t think that "a" is as good as "A". Variable for "a" and "A" can be everything. I’ve been watching, listening and asking. Still, there were questions that keep running in my head but I wasn’t allow to ask. Every person has their own way to keep someone, to love someone, to show that they care. What they do might not as nice as we imagine, but in the end we will know that way was the best that could be done by them. Like it’s depend on the knowledge and experience that they have.

Let’s discuss about types of "A".  The first "A". This is the strict "A". You are not allowed to do  1, you have to do 2, You can’t go the 3, You have to stay in 4 until I pick you up. You are not allowed to speak like this, You have to act like this in front of people, and You can’t do anything without my permission.  In that time, “a” was just following without intention to break and to say what she feels because she was to afraid and didn’t have any brave to do so. The result, “a” would be like passive person, she doesn’t have any creativity. She will just do something if she is asked to do so. Once “a” gets freedom to do what she wants, she will get confuse since she never can do what she wants. She will get stress when she knows that there are so many people, with the same age with her, have done so many precious, fun, and joy things, and still alive happily, not as suffer and sad as what “A” used to scary “a”. And, in this moment, “a” will do anything and even a negative or rebel things. It happens for real. And there will a time when “a” will understand that what “A” has done to her, why it should be different with others is just because “A” loves “a” too much until she couldn’t control herself, or it’s because something had happened to “A”, which make “A” did those things to “a” because she wants “a” doesn’t get or doesn’t feel just like “A” felt. That’s my simple thought about what I’ve seen.

The second “A”, in sha Allah to be continued yaaa

With Love

Farindh