Education, Career, Lifestyle and Love.

It takes two years for me to finally write here again, lately I have been thinking too much and I absolutely have a lot in my mind, but I just dont give myself time to express it in words just I like I always did. Today is Idul Adha Celebration but I just stay in my room, not going anywhere, not even trying to get food because all food store are closed and I am starving right now, with no money in my hand. So, I just ate indomie, drink a cup of coffee and write here. First, lets talk about the simple thing that drives people crazy and sometimes it becomes the hardest question to answer and the deepest talk could take. I can remember that I wanted to be stewardess so that I can go to many places and the work which I thought was not that hard. Then I change my dream to be a teacher or lecture, because again I think its an easy work to do (in fact its not that easy), maybe its because both of my parents were teachers. Again, I dont know how dreams change, is it because we know we cant

This is 10.06 a.m., and honestly I haven't started working at all. Hopefully my boss will not read this, or I hope he understand the reason why I haven't started working on anything. Last night I ate angkringan, and luckily my friend was also so silent last night so I have a moment to think, and to realize, that actually I do not want that much in this life. At one moment, I think that I have to earn a lot, simply I dont like seeing myself suffering because I don't have 'enough'. But if we look back into the concept that actually we are all having 'enough', it's just the way we perceive toward it, that most of the time we think we are always lack of something. Honestly I dont know, sometimes I have to be grateful because I have a place to stay, food I can eat, I am safe, I'm healthy, and that would be more than anything to be grateful for. But on the anotherr hand, I see people suffer, or even my closes family, people surround me, and I wish I could